27 September 2003
Saturday
Song: Smashing Pumpkins, Untitled
Well here I am in the middle of the night yet again. And I'm listening to the Pumpkins while researching the possible arsenic poisoning of N. Bonaparte, an online "Amish supply store," and blogging. Today was rather eventful. I went hat shopping with a new friend, Matt. I found several typewriters that I wish I could rescue, but it is not in the cards for me. Found $100 in the hidden compartment of my wallet, so I was able to go to a nice dinner. Was not able to really get in contact with anyone though. The new cd burner seems to be working at the moment too. In sad news, my cousin has had a friend been missing for two weeks. God help her. I started therapy last Friday, I think I might be ok, but its kinda scary that I had to start up again. And I'm obsessing a little over one of my friends, but thats another story...
Oh yes, one more thing. Tonight was the Grind, the traditional school skankification festival to crappy music. I didn't go, my friend Breton told me that she didn't think it was my sort of scene. She said I'm one of the few gentlemen left. I asked her what does being a gentleman get you anymore.
Sunday, September 28, 2003
Friday, September 26, 2003
25 September
Thursday
Red Mass today. We got through it pretty well. I saw the woman who gives me issues, and I think I'm getting over it. Still some anger and resentment. But I think I shall overcome it all. First therapy session is tomorrow. Lets hope for the best. I realized I latch on to people, maybe its from a fear of standing all by myself.
Thursday
Red Mass today. We got through it pretty well. I saw the woman who gives me issues, and I think I'm getting over it. Still some anger and resentment. But I think I shall overcome it all. First therapy session is tomorrow. Lets hope for the best. I realized I latch on to people, maybe its from a fear of standing all by myself.
Monday, September 22, 2003
21 September 2003
Sunday
Well today I managed to pretty much destory the Mass of Creation, but we go on. They were apparently appreciative, and I wasn't kicked out of the place.
Ok, here's the shittiness. Most everyone around me is getting in a relationship, and I'm still single. Plus the women that I've really fallen for have all gotten into serious relationships with other guys. This really really bugs me because if I'm seriously interested I'm not thinking about seeing how long it takes to get her into bed, I'm thinking about how it would be to wake up with her every day until my death. But no, they've all found other men. And it makes me so lonely. And to top it off, I finally got to see the boyfriend of one of them, he looks like more of a dork than me even. (Yes I know who is reading this and I don't care.) Maybe I should just give up on women, run to monastery, or buy a sheep. Oh, and my computer is malfunctioning too.
Sunday
Well today I managed to pretty much destory the Mass of Creation, but we go on. They were apparently appreciative, and I wasn't kicked out of the place.
Ok, here's the shittiness. Most everyone around me is getting in a relationship, and I'm still single. Plus the women that I've really fallen for have all gotten into serious relationships with other guys. This really really bugs me because if I'm seriously interested I'm not thinking about seeing how long it takes to get her into bed, I'm thinking about how it would be to wake up with her every day until my death. But no, they've all found other men. And it makes me so lonely. And to top it off, I finally got to see the boyfriend of one of them, he looks like more of a dork than me even. (Yes I know who is reading this and I don't care.) Maybe I should just give up on women, run to monastery, or buy a sheep. Oh, and my computer is malfunctioning too.
Saturday, September 20, 2003
19 September 2003
Wow, what a great day. I ended up staying up all night because I wanted to see Jeremy off. He got my note, and when I got out of the car, he hugged me. Dude, it was great. Guess I felt loved again for a change. We talked for a few minutes about stuff, turns out he actually would have liked the velvet love bonds I was joking about making for him. Anyway, that sorta turned me into a morning person. Maybe if I had more good crisp mornings with the promise of good things life would be better. Came home, slept, took photographs, spent like 4 hours in the darkroom, saw The Matrix, and met some new people. Now I have to get up tomorrow early to go sub at St. Josephs.
Wow, what a great day. I ended up staying up all night because I wanted to see Jeremy off. He got my note, and when I got out of the car, he hugged me. Dude, it was great. Guess I felt loved again for a change. We talked for a few minutes about stuff, turns out he actually would have liked the velvet love bonds I was joking about making for him. Anyway, that sorta turned me into a morning person. Maybe if I had more good crisp mornings with the promise of good things life would be better. Came home, slept, took photographs, spent like 4 hours in the darkroom, saw The Matrix, and met some new people. Now I have to get up tomorrow early to go sub at St. Josephs.
Friday, September 19, 2003
18 September 2003
Friday
I f---ing hate being single. I really do. Its not being helped that two of my roommates are dating the ladies next door. So when I saw happy couples I started banging my head against the wall. Why does everyone else get a woman? Why do I just get turmoil and heartache instead? I fall for Melinda after she gives up on me, then she says I'm too good of a guy for me to be rebound man after she breaks up with yet another boyfriend. Juliana gets a boyfriend, dumps him, and gets another guy before I get a chance to ask her out. And she spurns my offers. Anne--the drunken bitch--laughs at me. Colleen doesn't realize how much she's messing with my heart when she is messing with my heart. Esther's chasing after me when I don't want to go out with her. And I still pray that I'll get married and reproduce alittle human. Maybe I should get a man, or perhaps a cat, whichever's less maintainance.
Friday
I f---ing hate being single. I really do. Its not being helped that two of my roommates are dating the ladies next door. So when I saw happy couples I started banging my head against the wall. Why does everyone else get a woman? Why do I just get turmoil and heartache instead? I fall for Melinda after she gives up on me, then she says I'm too good of a guy for me to be rebound man after she breaks up with yet another boyfriend. Juliana gets a boyfriend, dumps him, and gets another guy before I get a chance to ask her out. And she spurns my offers. Anne--the drunken bitch--laughs at me. Colleen doesn't realize how much she's messing with my heart when she is messing with my heart. Esther's chasing after me when I don't want to go out with her. And I still pray that I'll get married and reproduce alittle human. Maybe I should get a man, or perhaps a cat, whichever's less maintainance.
Tuesday, September 16, 2003
15 September
Monday
What a day! I got the new fuel pump on the car, now the carburetor floods again like it used to. The gas tank also leaks, and the fuel gauge is unreliable. Hugo's dying I'm afraid. Ran to class. Felt like crap. Did have a nice lunch with a nice freshman guy who should't become a priest because the world desperately needs genes like his to propagate the species. Let see, Jeremy's room is coming along, I need to check out the poster sale tomorrow.
Monday
What a day! I got the new fuel pump on the car, now the carburetor floods again like it used to. The gas tank also leaks, and the fuel gauge is unreliable. Hugo's dying I'm afraid. Ran to class. Felt like crap. Did have a nice lunch with a nice freshman guy who should't become a priest because the world desperately needs genes like his to propagate the species. Let see, Jeremy's room is coming along, I need to check out the poster sale tomorrow.
15 September
Monday
What a day! I got the new fuel pump on the car, now the carburetor floods again like it used to. The gas tank also leaks, and the fuel gauge is unreliable. Hugo's dying I'm afraid. Ran to class. Felt like crap. Did have a nice lunch with a nice freshman guy who should't become a priest because the world desperately needs genes like his to propagate the species. Let see, Jeremy's room is coming along, I need to check out the poster sale tomorrow.
Monday
What a day! I got the new fuel pump on the car, now the carburetor floods again like it used to. The gas tank also leaks, and the fuel gauge is unreliable. Hugo's dying I'm afraid. Ran to class. Felt like crap. Did have a nice lunch with a nice freshman guy who should't become a priest because the world desperately needs genes like his to propagate the species. Let see, Jeremy's room is coming along, I need to check out the poster sale tomorrow.
Monday, September 15, 2003
14 September 2003
Sunday
My what a weekend. Friday night I went to se "Matchstick Men" with friends. We got 5 into the car, but I don't know if I should be doing that with the rustout to the subframe. Oh well, we got 5 in for the first time. Coming out of the theatre was a truly Spokane moment. We saw these two young women, one in a flesh colored sweater. I wanted to know where she got it, it was a good fakeout. Upon closer look, girl #2 was topless! Now we were all thinking, "Man these hookers must be cold, and what the hell are they doing here!" After we got past them, we realized that topless was a guy with long hair and man boobs. He had plumbers butt, and no women have plumbers butt. They just don't. And the lady had his T shirt around her shoulders. They got into a car like a minute before we did. Getting into the apartment, I asked if other people were fooled, and apparently we all were. Saturday my fuel pump went out--in a turnout lane on Francis!. Same tow guy as last time. I'll fix it tomorrow morning. Saturday night was a toga party. Suffice to say, I was the only toga of purply velvet with a blue necktie. I did get some attention from the necktie. Ok. I knew that at least three of the women were wearing brassieres but not panties, two told me or someone near me, one had a minor accident but I'm not complaining at all. :0) (Yes I'm so scandalous.) I only had a shot of cocoanut vodka, rather nice stuff. Ok what else happened there... oh yes, I realized that at any party at least three people will be unhappy and I suspect would rather not be there but don't want to feel like total loners. I tried to hang out and mingle, it was a good evening. One guy I met was essentially man-whoring himself. He is a smooth operator, and it was impressive to see a good craftsman at work. He took pity on me for being a nice guy. Funny thing, he has a Cross tattooed on his right shoulder blade. So here is this guy who told me he got over an addiction by meditating on the Cross, and he's making out with a drunk chick. Hypocritical? Guess I just try to make my religion affect my whole life. I suppose its also becuase I find it chilling that Anton Levey got onto his church of satan thing from hypocracy. Ok, so that was Saturday. Sunday was nothing special, but a good day. Went out decorating shopping with a good friend. Its amazing the difference friends make.
Sunday
My what a weekend. Friday night I went to se "Matchstick Men" with friends. We got 5 into the car, but I don't know if I should be doing that with the rustout to the subframe. Oh well, we got 5 in for the first time. Coming out of the theatre was a truly Spokane moment. We saw these two young women, one in a flesh colored sweater. I wanted to know where she got it, it was a good fakeout. Upon closer look, girl #2 was topless! Now we were all thinking, "Man these hookers must be cold, and what the hell are they doing here!" After we got past them, we realized that topless was a guy with long hair and man boobs. He had plumbers butt, and no women have plumbers butt. They just don't. And the lady had his T shirt around her shoulders. They got into a car like a minute before we did. Getting into the apartment, I asked if other people were fooled, and apparently we all were. Saturday my fuel pump went out--in a turnout lane on Francis!. Same tow guy as last time. I'll fix it tomorrow morning. Saturday night was a toga party. Suffice to say, I was the only toga of purply velvet with a blue necktie. I did get some attention from the necktie. Ok. I knew that at least three of the women were wearing brassieres but not panties, two told me or someone near me, one had a minor accident but I'm not complaining at all. :0) (Yes I'm so scandalous.) I only had a shot of cocoanut vodka, rather nice stuff. Ok what else happened there... oh yes, I realized that at any party at least three people will be unhappy and I suspect would rather not be there but don't want to feel like total loners. I tried to hang out and mingle, it was a good evening. One guy I met was essentially man-whoring himself. He is a smooth operator, and it was impressive to see a good craftsman at work. He took pity on me for being a nice guy. Funny thing, he has a Cross tattooed on his right shoulder blade. So here is this guy who told me he got over an addiction by meditating on the Cross, and he's making out with a drunk chick. Hypocritical? Guess I just try to make my religion affect my whole life. I suppose its also becuase I find it chilling that Anton Levey got onto his church of satan thing from hypocracy. Ok, so that was Saturday. Sunday was nothing special, but a good day. Went out decorating shopping with a good friend. Its amazing the difference friends make.
Saturday, September 13, 2003
12 September 2003
Friday
Oh man. Last weekend the Bozarth Retreat House nearly burned down. Thanks to the choir it did not. This week has been long and wild as usual. I think I will write my thesis on the pipe organs of Spokane. Lets see what else. My starter went out on Wednesday, today it was rebuilt. Of course, everything I wanted to do will have to wait for Monday. Went to a movie and met cool people. And my brain is toast for real thoughts.
Friday
Oh man. Last weekend the Bozarth Retreat House nearly burned down. Thanks to the choir it did not. This week has been long and wild as usual. I think I will write my thesis on the pipe organs of Spokane. Lets see what else. My starter went out on Wednesday, today it was rebuilt. Of course, everything I wanted to do will have to wait for Monday. Went to a movie and met cool people. And my brain is toast for real thoughts.
Tuesday, September 09, 2003
8 September 2003
Monday
Song: Schubert, Ave Maria
Good gracious its been forever since I've written a blog. Shame on me. Somehow listening to good music makes everything seem somewhat better. And tonight the Schubert is working its devotional magic. I don't even know where to begin. I guess I shall just wrap up the last couple weeks by saying that I think this school year will work out well. I need to practice the organ more, and I realize how very special I am with some of my dear friends.
Monday
Song: Schubert, Ave Maria
Good gracious its been forever since I've written a blog. Shame on me. Somehow listening to good music makes everything seem somewhat better. And tonight the Schubert is working its devotional magic. I don't even know where to begin. I guess I shall just wrap up the last couple weeks by saying that I think this school year will work out well. I need to practice the organ more, and I realize how very special I am with some of my dear friends.
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